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2006-08-02 - 10:17 p.m. I'm completely frustrating myself again about doing stuff. And by stuff I mean: resume writing, job hunting, getting information on universities, getting information on other classes I want to take, asking for a raise, making progress on various other projects, sewing, drawing, writing, painting, cleaning. Ugh. I can feel all this stuff building up and me making no progress and wanting to and resisting and wanting to and resisting. God only knows what my life would be like if I stopped resisting things. Work was so frustrating today. I'm trying frantically and hopelessly to get my survey project up for the month - maybe tomorrow - and at the same time trying to oversee a bunch of people working on this other project that is so huge that it makes me tired just thinking about it. If I could just get the one done I could concentrate on the other. But I can't get the one done because of the constant interruptions and questions and things that need to be done on the huge project. Can I charge for overtime for the hours I spend in the middle of the night worrying about this project? I think I used to be a better multi-tasker than I am now. It's like whatever project in my life comes along it preempts the one before - even though the one before might be the far more important project, in my eyes at least. For instance, work worries have overtaken my looking for work, which overtook my looking into universities - which is far more important.
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