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2006-10-29 - 10:11 a.m. Well, we have enough snow now that I don't think it will go away before spring. I'm not so looking forward to winter this year. Right now it just feels like one more hard thing that I don't have the energy to deal with. I just feel like I don't have the reserves to deal with hard things right now. Work continues to be a hard thing. The six-year-old's funeral was a hard thing. Maybe I need to embrace winter - dig out the winter boots and coat and long underwear and go walking. Or burrow under a quilt on the couch and watch movies. Or do some crafts. Or get some wonderful books to read. Or take a few days off and go Christmas shopping. It's just that I wasn't really done with autumn. I wasn't really done with the colours and the rustle of dry leaves, and leaf prints on the sidewalks and wild earthy autumn smells. But I wasn't really done with summer either this year. I wasn't done with deep blue skies and lakes and sand and flowers. Somehow this year it seems like I'm not getting my fill of things so I'm not ready to move on when the year is.
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