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2006-12-07 - 9:21 p.m. My vehicle insurance renewal notice was in my mailbox today. I muttered to myself a bit about what a stupid time of year it is to have it renew and why can't it be in June when there aren't so many demands on my bank account. And wondering where I was going to find an extra $800. After a little while it suddenly occured to me that I have it set up as an automatic withdrawal every month and that my bill in January will be the same as it is every month. I'd got caught in some weird time warp thingy back to when I was getting a bill for $800 at Christmas and it was a hardship. What's more, I never have to actually do anything beyond putting the new slip in my wallet - they renew it automatically. It may well be the most pain-free bill I have. I have an absurd wish to have my whole apartment sparkling clean and shiny before Christmas. I think it would be nice to go into a new year with everything fresh and clean. It is patently absurd to think this is going to happen, but I would, at least, like to have it way cleaner than it is now. I've instituted a new plan. Every night when I do the dishes I clean one small thing that I wouldn't normally clean. I try to make it 5 or 10 minute jobs and break large things down into small jobs. I like it, but it certainly isn't going to get everything cleaned by Christmas. I also need to start seriously weeding and throwing away things. The closer I get to actually moving the more sad I feel about leaving my home and the more panicked I feel about all the stuff I've acquired. I actually don't think I'd be able to move if I didn't know for a fact that my home won't be here anymore anyway. It's better for me not to be here when they knock it down. I don't think I'd be able to watch. As it is I can't talk about it at all without crying. This is my last weekend before my holidays. I have so much to do to get ready, because my plan is to be done by then so I can lie around on my couch for a few days and read my book and eat bonbons. That's so not going to happen.
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