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2007-04-23 - 8:51 p.m. I might feel better. How great would that be? But I'm prepared that maybe I'm only going to feel better today and that this is only some fluke. And I was awfully tired earlier and I did have a really hard time getting up today. But. I came home from work an hour early (because I could). A week ago this would have meant sleeping. Today I didn't. I puttered around and had supper and then I bounced around and did a bunch of things. I exercised because I wanted to. I made ginger cookies for a work potluck a day early and it didn't feel like a horrendous chore that I couldn't cope with. A week ago even turning the computer back on to write this would have been too much effort. Last night I managed to start up my crochet project again. And starting after stopping is the hardest part. Then I did a bunch of rows today. But more than all that, it feels like my brain is turned on again. Like I can plan and think about my life again. It's not that I haven't done stuff for the last two months, but it's mostly been under duress and it sure didn't have a lot of pleasure involved. It would be so great if this continued. I was thinking today that perfectionism is an especially bad thing when combined with being easily bored. I bet it really gets in the way of stick-to-it-tive-ness. I'm sure I could go further with that thought, but why bother?
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